Sunday, May 28, 2006
Mixed and confused feelings..I just suck to the core sometimes..
Went to party world with my sis after the tiring trip to Sentosa..
[Her stead just broke up with her]
Okay then after 1 hour of singing, she just left me there to sing alone..
[She went to meet her friends]
Never mind.. So I sang till 1am myself..
I am broke..
Being an elder sister is not as easy as you think..
You are always the one forking out money..
Enduring her scolding every single day..
Helping her to be the middleman between my parents..
I am used to it..
But at times, it just drift me further away from home each time..
Soon she is going to stay at the penthouse for a period of time..
[Am I dumb to reject the offer..]
All by myself last night..
My dearest family went to stayover at the penthouse..
So I enjoyed the barcadi breezer myself..
[Which made me a little faint..]
With the company of my dearest Ku Xiao Bu De sister at msn..
[Last night I was desperate for company.. First time..]
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5/28/2006 04:02:00 PM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Well.. Lately quite a few primary school friends contacted me..Was quite shocked.. That is why it made me think back..
These are the 2 songs I wrote today to let out my feelings..
[Kenny I pai sei to show it to you because I think not up to standard but if you think it is okay and you want to use then just take it ba]
Jonathan [The guy I thought was Jack when Jack stood up]
He was the first guy I like..
We were officially together but never ever officially broke up before..
He just left me because of another girl friend of mine..
[One day he just stopped talking to me]
After year 1, we went to different classes..
And miraculously, we never met for the rest of the years..
And I almost forget about such a guy..
Until a few years back, I went out with SM..
We were on the train..
[He just sat right opposite me..]
And surprisingly, I think he still remembers me..
[Cause he was looking at me even until I left the train..]
Anyway he is a jerk..
Ee Siong [The guy I thought was Jack when Jack back face me]
He was my long time best friend..
Ever since we were Kindergarten..
He liked me and was extremely good to me..
Whenever I have trouble, he will be there for me..
[He even beat up the guy whom bully me]
But when I start to like him, he fell for another girl..
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5/23/2006 09:59:00 PM
Monday, May 22, 2006
Jack house, lingerie club having fun with Chivas..Mad and I planned to attacked Kenny but we got ourselves down first..
Indian poker, modified bing bang boom, Yi zi wu gui tiao xia shui..
We four had fun till 1am..
Then dispersed..
They were chatting in the balcony while I went to toilet..
Though tipsy but I was still doing fine before I stepped out of the toilet..
I practically laid on the ground, paralyzed..
While waiting and mumbling for help, I tried to get up..
[It was worse than the CNY okay..]
Then when they finally discovered that I am down, they were laughing their ass out..
Especially Jack, he was practically rolling on the floor..
Kenny was kind enough to carry me back..
[I owe you a big thank you]
And my “dream” started..
[Anyway I remembered the following part when I was in Food Junction]
When Jack was standing up, I thought I saw him [that jerk]..
When Jack was back facing me, I thought I saw him [that guy which I am guilty towards]..
Practically, I answered whatever they [the guys] asked me..
The interrogation stopped when Mad hurt Jack..
[Mad was trying to help me]
But what I was so pissed off with myself is..
Why am I still thinking of that jerk and not getting over it?
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5/22/2006 11:09:00 PM
Thursday, May 18, 2006
It was another drinking session that I craved for..After eating dinner with mad and jack..
Mad suggested [FINALLY] want to drink or not..
[Initially nobody got my hint..]
So it happened at Yishun just in front of the Sembawang Town Council..
[The same gang who got really out of hand at Jack house this CNY..]
Classic bing bang boom, the multiples..
The Don’t Have game, the Gotcha game.. [NEW!]
It was fun and we ended at around 11 plus..
Finishing two bottles of Black Cat cum coke..
After they bid goodbye to me, I grabbed my bag and started walking my way home..
I lost grip with my wobbly legs and dizzy head..
[It was the 2nd worst condition apart from the CNY..]
And try to balance myself with the pillar..
[I just blurt out THIS IS BAD..]
The four had no choice but to walk me home..
And once again I am teased by them to be the first to be down..
That Mr. Pang nearly cause me to fall.. [IDIOT]
He asked me if I am alright and suddenly sat on the stairs himself..
I turned around and asked what happen to you..
I felt dizzy and almost sat like the other time..
But I was still able to hold on and get up myself..
Once again I am real lucky that my family was not there to witness all these.. [Sorry.. I lied..]
Anyway thanks to that bunch for sending me home safely..
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5/18/2006 05:03:00 PM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Well I went to my uncle’s penthouse..It was superb..
He even have a rooftop and a free BBQ pit..
And there is tons of toilets..
The only thing is that the rooms are small..
Is it really dumb of me to reject his offer?
I even can hallucinate of my birthday party held there..
All of us drinking liquor at the rooftop..
But I will never ever have the courage to ask my uncle..
Sometimes I wonder.. Why can’t I be selfish for ONCE in my life..
Anyway, my secret was exposed yesterday because of Jack..
[Though I know everyone have guessed it..]
I was quite stunned actually..
He just ask the rest [Lia & Gel] whether they know who I like..
Then they just started to discuss while I awkwardly kept quiet..
But anyway it is over..
The Madeira
The living room
The rooftop
The magnificant view from 28th storey
Some of the facilities
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5/17/2006 11:42:00 AM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
The symptoms are all coming back again..I am worn out..
I wanted to try it out for a month..
But this is only the first week and I am dead beat..
It is not easy to study and work at the same time..
Partially, it was my incompetent and lack of planning of my time..
I need money to support myself..
[My allowance and leisure expenses.. And hopefully soon, my bills and transportation fees also.. Still trying to work on it..]
Though I can choose not to..
But I just don’t like to be dependent on others..
I know, stubborn as usual..
But isn’t this a virtue of mine too?
[HAHA..]
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5/07/2006 01:10:00 AM
Friday, May 05, 2006
I like who I am now..Though I look a bit crazy..
But at least I am laughing almost every single day..
Bumping, jumping around..
Playing, joking and always energized..
Hope that this insane me will never cease..
SK and I had an agreement..
The coming Orion competition in June..
We are going to join for the duets..
I knew I might not be good enough to pair up with SK..
But I just want to give it a try..
Enjoy the process..
If SK backs out, I will pull my cousin to join with me..
I just love my never say die attitude now..
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5/05/2006 08:26:00 PM