Sunday, September 17, 2006
My birthday this year..
I plan to fulfill the dream I wished for every year..
To have a party with all my friends present..
I know it is kind of impossible to get full attendance..
But I still hope to get as much people present as possible..
I DONT want any gifts, presents or anything from my wishlist..
I just want everyone there, with a cheesecake, sing me a birthday song together..
And best with a little surprise to actually melt my heart..
Then we can play games and chill for the night..
I know it is not a ideal to actually bring different cliques together..
But I still hope for the best..
For just this two days one night..
Get together, have fun and it will be the perfect night..
Can I trust you guys to give me the best birthday this year?
For just this once.. Make an effort to be there..
hidden secret star
9/17/2006 11:31:00 PM
Monday, September 11, 2006
The last time I blog here was in June..
Ever since I pronounced dead, I felt nearly nothing at all..
I know, if I tell the others, they will think I am exaggerating again..
But I just couldnt control my feelings..
Only SM knew what happened..
I was hurt by someone close..
But she did not do it on purpose..
It just comes with her character..
And at that moment, I was to be blamed for the mistake that I made at work..
But I could never forget her expression, her words, her voice..
I broke down.. For 3 days I never stopped crying..
And my heart just died like that..
Even till now, I still feel the pain..
I did not want to spoil the friendship between us and dont want her to change because of this..
Thats why I said nothing to the others..
That is her real self..
Maybe I am just not used to it, thats all..
The thing I dont understand is why only when it comes from her, I feel the pain..
I think I really trust and rely on her a lot ba..
Feign.. I know it is not good..
But should I tell her?
hidden secret star
9/11/2006 10:42:00 PM
